Saturday 11 October 2014

Cardboard Surfboards

There was a field by my old house; we called it the green,

There were 3 large hills and for any child it was a picture perfect scene,
The days I remember the most was when we played hide and seek,
Sam and me ran straight for the Green and I spotted something I never expected to see,

There were blue berry bushes everywhere, enough to fill our sweaters 10 times over,
Mums face when she saw the state of my clothes but that still didn’t stop us,
And I remember the day Simone’s mom was moving out and let us play with some left over boxes,
We tore the cardboard into surfboards, picked the biggest hill on the green and ran straight for the top of it,
It had rained the night before, so this was gonna be messy,
“It will make sliding down that much easier though” was how Sam convinced me into it,
I balanced my cardboard surfboard on the edge and refused to look down,
What’s the worst that could happen? Mom can’t ship me to India now,

And so I skied the hills length on a sheet of flimsy card,
It was stupid, reckless even, but I had never laughed so hard.
As my screams shifted to joy I thought, nothing could beat this.
The green was everything to us; I dunno what we’d do without it.
The new playground was cool, but the green would always remain the best.
Could have skied the hills until the sun began to set.

A few years later I learnt to ride my bike on the very same grass,
The green was the only place I felt safe because the fields stopped me rolling too fast,
And not long later, I started my first dance academy,
Tap, ballet, jazz and gymnastics,
And Sam was trying to teach me all the moves, though she secretly didn’t have a clue,
She claimed to be an ex-gymnastics champion at 10 you see, that’s how she knew everything I was about to do,
And we would have cartwheeled on the green all day, but mum soon called me in,
She laid dinner on the table and just as I was about to tuck in…
“They’re taking the green down you know” she mumbled and watched my smile fall,
They were taking down our hills, our blue berry bushes and fields; they were taking it all,
The night before work was due to start, mum let us stay out extra late,
Looked like every kid in the area had the same idea, they were all over the place.
We all lay on memorable spots on the green, looking up at the stars appreciating every moment of this,
Sharing stories about our adventures and regretting the many other things we could have done,
Feeling sunrise creep closer and closer, knowing that in a few days this would all be gone.

To everyone else it was just a bit of Green, for every child in that district of Selly Oak it was everything.
And now stands a development of new state of the art houses,
They’re beautiful, but nothing compared to what was torn down in the early 2000s
Went to visit it the other day, saw they took down our favourite tree,

We carved our names in the trunk. Guess there’s nothing left of little Sam and little me.

My ode to Gossip Girl...

I wanna be a New Yorker.
I wanna live in a tall glass tower, where the wallpaper is covered in textures flowers and there’s not only bathrooms but a room dedicated to one big shower.
I wanna be Queen B. I wanna prance around my expensive private school with everyone worshipping me. I wanna get over heartbreaks in the company of my maid watching re-runs of Glee. I wanna own the shops on 34th street.
I want a man as complex as Chuck Bass, the air to the Empire and settles for nothing less than 5 class. I want to eat in the most expensive joints and watch the celebrities pass, I want a pair of Chanel jeans just for the logo on my ass.
I wanna throw parties just because I can, fly to Paris for a custom made dress and grab a pair of heels from Milan. I want a stylist like Gok-Wan, be admired by the press on the arm of my Forbes list man.
I wanna feature on a blog where the city relishes on my drama, I want a loyal best friend and clique acting as human armour. I want to own a yacht, waiting for me to take it out on the harbour and twiddle my thumbs about who’s the lucky father.


But I’ve gotta admit, if this lifestyle is as exhausting to live as this poem is to write, then I wanna stay in Birmingham, snuggled up with my cats every night. I’d maybe trade a moment to sparkle in the limelight but at the end of the day I think my life is just fine.
I like my deep green garden and my hilly view and I adore my knock-off unfashionably comfortable ankle boots.
I like my quant welcoming room and my quiet street, not that I’d say no to a day shopping with the elite.
I like how my life isn’t sprawled online for the world to see,

You know…I’m happy being me.